1. autumnraew

    I greatly appreciate you writing me back. I totally agree with you about it all. I just wanted to clarify something though that I accidently left out of my other post. The reason I had to come off of the Suboxone is because I am currently living in Canada. And they do not yet have Suboxone up here. It’s in the making I think, but not here yet. They only have Methadone here, and I’m sure as hell not going to get on that. I used to buy Methadone off the street to get high on, so I know that wouldn’t help me at all. I am in Canada first of all because my mother lives here, and she is my biggest support system. I am in a completely drug/alcohol free environment. My mother and step father will barely take an aspirin. They hate drugs. But my mother has been with me through this entire thing, and it was her who did an intervention on me the first time. Also, I have been an aspiring nurse for some time now, but my drug problem has prevented me from achieving my goal. Up here in Canada, I have already gotten accepted to the nursing program, and I start on September 2nd. Which is soon. So I scheduled the tapering off the Suboxone in order to be feeling fine by the time I start school. I understand that being on Xanax is stupid, and that it’s not helping me in the long run. It’s just a temporary solution. But since I can’t be on Suboxone, I figured I’d stay on the Xanax for a bit longer. I know coming off of that is hell too. But I didn’t want to come off of both at the same time. My Dr. only gave me 150 Xanax’s for this one month, while I’m in withdrawal from the Suboxone. I have to go back to him in a month and my script will go back down to 3 0.5’s/day. I will most definitely talk to him about switching to the longer lasting benzo when it’s time to taper off of that. My goal is to be drug free. From every drug! I have attended many NA meetings. Not recently, because I just moved up here to Canada. They do have outpatient treatment here that is totally FREE! So I’m going to try to get in there as well. I realize that this is going to be a lifelong struggle for me, and that I will always be a drug addict. I will be fighting this for the rest of my life. I was born with the addiction gene from both sides of my family. But I know that’s no excuse. It was my fault, no one else’s. I’m just thankful to have family that is so supportive of my mess-ups. I pray to never relapse again. I read my NA book all the time. It helps. Ok, I think that’s about it for now. Thanks again.

  2. chad lockhart

    I am wanting to try and get as much info on Xanax as I possibly can. I have had 2 good friends and a countless number of associates die either directly or indirectly from this drug. I’m tired of watching this drug take away from my friends lives. I have seen one after the other start by just taking a 1/2 a bar and before too long they are taking 3-4, 5-6, or 10+ pills. This is ridiculous!!!! NO ONE needs this drug!!!! People have no idea what they are doing to themselves!

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