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  1. 100-300$ per day? So you said it took you 5 months? I am curious, how did it start; Percocet 7.5s, Norcos, Lortab? What did it end with? You know I have been enjoying mild recreational opiate use since about 2003 with the occasional and delectable Vicodin ES maybe 1-2 per wk. For about a year there wasn’t any Vicodin around after about a dozen doses and I easily forgot about it. Then my father, a shopkeep at the local small-town grocery was bringing small selections of pills a few times a week. I began to enjoy the indulgence of opioid based analgesics once again. Eventually I met the people that were trading him and started selling them for a short time to a couple close friends ( this whole time I never paid for any of my opiates spare maybe a handful of times maybe 10 bucks here, 5 there.) Before you know it I have bottles full of several hundred blue lortab 10s at a time and I’m taking them 2 a day until they’ve all sold out. After up to 3 weeks straight use on these when I’d run out, I’d continue on as if I I’d never been taking them. Before they were sparse but by now they’re everywhere. Seems like every Tom, Dick, and Harry has a perscription for Vikes, OCs, or Opana. Eventually I’d have at least 2 steady scripts for Oxycontin 40s and Percocet 10s and I have a bit of a tolerance now, I even have hookups for methadone and dilaudid, fentanyl and opana, codeine and even tramadol yet during this whole period when I ran out I never spent over 100$ a week and certainly not per day and if per week I was spending anywhere near there it wasn’t to support my own habits. I am just pointing out I suppose all people react differently. I have never had an addiction though I admit oxycodone has its allure this late in the game but I can go from 3 cigs a day to 0 with ease. I can see the contempt in your writing, the contempt that grows on the trees and seethes in the dew of the grass in the land only too familiar to oxy users. I don’t abhor it, no I rather sympathize. I am interested in your story. What did it for you? What does it for you? My poor friend recently has gotten a taste for oxy only after a few uses of oxycontin and the way he throws all of this money into it and the way he gets so excited he shakes a little bit when he gets it in his hand after only a months use is truly frightening. He is moving from chronic marijuana usage to substitute with something far more insidious. I only thank god I know his dealers well enough to cut him off before the real ugliness rears its head. It takes all kinds I guess. I know this comment is scattered but I am enjoying a suboxone right now. Email me sometime, we will have a nice chat.

  2. I just noticed this post, and noticed that I never responded to it. I don’t really know how to respond– I don’t want to validate some of the perspectives of the writer, particularly the last part about ‘enjoying a Suboxone’. When taken properly, Suboxone doesn’t provide a ‘high’, as the person taking it becomes tolerant to those effects. So my recommendation to the writer would be to take a good look in the mirror on the topic of whether or not you are ‘addicted’, and if you are not, then stop taking Suboxone!
    As far as your questions about my own addiction, my story is out there. I didn’t have any period of ‘controlled use’, and never enjoyed using opiates– other than the stupid buzz that comes immediately after dosing and then is gone in a flash. Even that short rush was more a relief from the miserable depression that had taken over my life, than something I would characterize as ‘pleasure’. My progression is described on my Suboxone practice web site, at wisconsinopiates.com, under the link ‘junkie’. I started with codeine cough syrup for a cold, and progressed to the intravenous narcotics from my anesthesia practice.
    Many times, I have had the discussion with other addicts about how much we hate being ‘addicts’, and how much we wish we could turn back the clock and avoid the whole mess. If you are truly not an ‘addict’ at this point I encourage you to avoid becoming one, and quit playing with this crap. I don’t have ‘contempt’ for addiction– such a feeling would require me to have a sense of ‘superiority’ or ‘control’ over addiction. That is certainly not true in my case. If anything, my attitude toward addiction consists of regret, sadness, and fear. I regret giving a substance a life-long hold on me, and regret once thinking that I was somehow ‘special’ and immune from that danger. To be frank, I regret once feeling how you seem to feel, and believing what you seem to believe.
    Take care, and again, I encourage to leave while you can.
    SD

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