1. Lauren Sabella

    Thank you so much for actually acting as a medical PROFESSIONAL should! I’ve been clean and sober for over four years now. I have an AMAZING 17 month old daughter and I am currently 36 weeks pregnant with our 2nd little (blessing!) daughter! Yes(!), we stay quite busy in this house, to say the least!! I have been a buprenorphine (buprenorphine naloxon when not pregnant) patient for about 3 years straight. We, my husband and I, reside in a fairly large city with an extremely notable hospital and children’s hospital. One would expect open mindedness (a lack of ignorance) to be prevalent throughout the medical community, amongst doctors, nurses, CNA’s, neonatologists, etc., due to all the factual based, research proven information available. Not to mention, it is 2017 and the prevalent number of opioid dependent mothers in trtreatment have been and still are, on a national level, only becoming higher and higher. Unfortunately, small town or big city (in conjunction with a flood of new medical information flooding our society and readily available to medical professionals and beyond) the lack of infinformed, rigid, closed minded, rigid and biased OB’s (etc.) are largely still out numbering individuals such as yourself. My daughter was in the Neonatal Progressive Care unit at Levine CChildren’s Hospital in Charlotte, North Carolina for an excruciating 27 days. My doctor, who had just been brought in by CMC from Princeton as a published, renowned specialist requested, repeatedly all of my daughters medical records while in progressive care. Every time without success. He, as well as our pediatricians, etc. are almost certain she was unnecessarily kept and are continuously attempting, unsuccessfully, to understand the neonatologists reasoning behind her 27 day stay. The treatment my husband and I received throughout that time was subpar to say the least, in addition. As I mentioned, I am once again about to give birth and I am in a utter tail spin as to what IS going to happen this time around. The anxiety I currently endure every waking hour is almost unbearable. Unfortunately the vast majority of my anxiety is in direct correlation to how i know, for a fact, I/we are about to be treated due to my medical history, my daughter being an NAS baby, and myself deemed as high risk due to being a current buprenorphine patient. I would NEVER in a million years want my baby girls to unnecessarily endure the pain of withdrawals due to a horrible ‘decision,’ for lack of better words their mother made over half a decade ago to become addicted to heroin thus being a subutex patient throughout their ‘gestational lifes,’ however I am in shock and disbelief over how many doctors, nurses, etc are not only so uninformed concerning this subject as a whole, but also how they can morally live with themselves, being in the profession of HEALING human beings…all humans, knowing that they have treated someone with a disease (and allowed it to potentially affect their medical judgemental and decisions) so incredibly poorly. What I would do to have someone like you be involved in my impending labor and delivery and the postnatal care of my daughter(s)… I don’t even think there’s a word sufficient enough to verbally describe how grateful and mentally more ‘healthy’ I’d currently be.. I just wanted to/felt compelled to let you know just how amazing the small number of people similar to you, really are. YOU,are truly the exact image of. what I would hope and pray all medical professionals would be like, without question. A TRUE healer

    • Thank you very much. I’m always surprised at the extent of ignorance and stigma that still persists, 13 years after buprenorphine was first used to treat opioid dependence. I have witnessed the exact situations that you describe, and I’m sorry for what you’ve had to deal with. You are changing minds, though, when you keep a level head and explain the truth– so keep it up!

  2. Jaymi

    This helped me see things more clearly. Thank you. My baby is I. The nicu right now weaning off my subutex. I was on 8 mgs a day my entire pregnancy. I was told not to wean down, although I’ve cut my dose in half since I’ve had my daughter because I feel if she is doing it so can I. I can’t shake the guilt and shame feeling in my gut though. I know what’s done is done but I feel like I’m already starting off as a horrible mother because I’m the reason she’s so miserable and sick. She was handling the wean like a champ but she took a hard dive on the last drop on her methadone so now they have added phenobarbital to the mix to help ease the effects. I can’t help but think is this all as bad as it seems or is the nurse just exxagerating on her scoring because she is an “addicted” baby. And I too see and feel their noses above me. So jidgemental. If they only knew what my life was like a year ago and how far I have come. I go to the nicu at least three times a day, on top of taking care of my house and puppy. I feel so overwhelmed at times. My husband just gets frustrated with me when I get upset but I can’t help it. Your blog helped me understand that it may not be as bad as it seems. And that not all professionals are judge mental. I just want what’s best for my daughter and I’m beginning to question if this is all so necessary? I mean I know she’s in withdrawal but is it really as bad as the nurses are making it out to be? It sucks because it’s so out of my hands. I’ll never know. Sorry for the rant. I just needed to let out how I’m feeling to anyone other then my husband, thanks for your blog.- first time mom

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